Hello my love!


Today was extremely difficult.. I have never felt so emotional so suddenly.. It is interesting.. the more time we spend together you would think we would learn how to communicate properly.. but it seems like the moment you are away I lose my mind.. I am finding it so incredibly difficult to stay so calm knowing you are so far away.. I am still so wrong in so many different way.. and in complete honesty.. I still have so much more to learn from you.. in these past five years I have learned more about myself through you and have gained so much confidence in being around you.. You may not believe me when I tell you how amazing I think you are and how much I love hearing you talk about things you have the most confidence in.. I am trying so hard to keep this letter of my love positive.. I know you are very upset with me right now.. I will stop trying to avoid all uncomfortable conversations.. I feel so distant from you right now.. and you don't know how sorry I am and how badly I wish I could take everything back.. I lost my shit today.. you don't deserve that.. you asked me to please keep calm.. I am trying.. Robert compared to you I need to work on so much.. I am not even sure you will read this.. my anxiety is already starting to build at the thought of our next conversation.. Even with all this fighting that has been going on.. I made a simple promise that I really took to heart.. Every night away from you I will send you a letter filled with love.. my heart feels hurt right now.. and I am sorry for ever hurting your feelings.. I am still learning.. it has been a very long process.. I love you.. and I will gladly admit all of my wrongs.. I hope you at least read this.. and know I really take time to try and make you feel special.. my mind is all over the place right now because of what happened earlier.. please forgive me for my wrongs.. my stubbornness gets in the way of thinking clearly.. 

Come along it is the break of day
Surely now, you'll have some things to say
It's not the time for telling tales on me

So come along, it won't be long
'Til we return happy
Shut your eyes, there are no lies
In this world we call sleep
Let's desert this day of hurt
Tomorrow we'll be free

Let's not fight I'm tired can't we just sleep tonight?
Turn away it's just there's nothing left here to say
Turn around I know we're lost but soon we'll be found

Well it's been rough but we'll be just fine
Work it out yeah we'll survive
You mustn't let a few bad times dictate

So come along, it won't be long
'Til we return happy
Shut your eyes, there are no lies
In this world we call sleep
Let's desert this day of hurt
Tomorrow we'll be free

Let's not fight I'm tired can't we just sleep tonight?
Turn away it's just there's nothing left here to say
Turn around I know we're lost but soon we'll be found

Let's not fight I'm tired can't we just sleep tonight?
Turn away it's just there's nothing left here to say
Turn around I know we're lost but soon we'll be found, oh

Let's not fight I'm tired can't we just sleep tonight?
Turn away it's just there's nothing left here to say
Turn around I know we're lost but soon we'll be found

I know we're lost but soon we'll be found

i  will always love you..