Hello my love!

Did you know we were on the phone for 2 hours and 42 minutes? hahahaha I had no idea our conversation lasted that long.. I keep thinking about everything we talked about.. sometimes I get distracted from the points I am trying to make.. so I appreciate you listening to all of my stories and patiently waiting for me to say what I am really feeling.. I would love to have quality time with you every night.. and share stories of our day.. or talk about things that make us happy.. understanding your love language.. acts of service.. yes I have always known that.. but I am always looking for new ways to show you my affection.. I want to give you the love the deepest part of your heart desires.. it may take me some time and a few tries but I promise the effort will always be there.. we still have a long way to go and a lot more to learn.. but I am ready for it all.. I love you Robert. 

Come with me my love

To the sea

The sea of love

I want to tell you

How much I love you

Do you remember

When we met?

That's the day 

I knew you were my pet

I want to tell you

How much I love you

Come with me my love

To the sea

The sea of love

I want to tell you

How much I love you

I will always love you..

Hello my love!

I hate that we never take photos togethers.. hate it.. hahahah so here are a few photos from this weekend.. I know a lot happened in the past few days.. and I didn't get to spend as much time with you that I had hoped for.. but the time we did spend together was perfect.. I know we disagree about things and tonight I didn't go a great job articulating how I feel.. instead I got upset and I did make it weird.. I have been thinking about what you were trying to say and I do agree with you.. I love you because you are honest with me.. you will tell me things I can't expect other people to say.. I do the same for you.. thats what makes our relationship so strong.. I hope that never changes.. the disagreement we had today shouldn't have happened and I will take the blame for that.. I am sorry.. you showed how much you care for me and my family.. I don't know how to express how thankful I am for that.. my heart is always with you.. I do hope you know that..

A million stars up in the sky

one shines brighter I can't deny 

A love so precious a love so true

a love that comes from me to you

The angels sing when you are near

within your arms I have nothing to fear

You always know just what to say 

just talking to you makes my day

I love you honey with all of my heart

together forever and never to part.

I will always love you..

Hello my love!

I really enjoyed face timing you to tonight.. it was so nice being able to relax knowing you were with me.. today was such a busy day at work I'm sorry there aren't that many photos.. and the second one was taken by someone else but I wanted to share hahaha I actually think you called me while this picture was being taken.. I have so much to share and so much to do before you come tomorrow.. before I forget to say this.. I am a lucky woman.. lucky to have your heart and for you to have mine.. 

There's no combination of words

I could put on a back of a postcard

No song that I could sing

But I can try for your heart

Our dreams,And they are made out of real things

Like a shoebox of photographs

With sepia-toned loving

Love is the answer.

At least for most of the questions in my heart.

Like: "Why are we here?", 

"And where do we go?",

"And how come it's so hard?".

It's not always easy,

And sometimes life can be deceiving

I'll tell you one thing:

It's always better when we're together

Mmm, it's always better when we're together

Yeah, we'll look at them stars when we're together

Well, it's always better when we're together

Yeah, it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments

Just might find their way into my dreams tonight

But I know that they'll be gone

When the morning light sings and brings new things

For tomorrow night you see that they'll be gone too

Too many things I have to do

But if all of these dreams

Might find their way into my day-to-day scene

I'd be under the impression

I was somewhere in between

With only two

Just me and you

Not so many things we got to do

Or places we got to be

We'll sit beneath the mango tree now

Yeah, it's always better when we're together

Mmm, we're somewhere in between together

Well, it's always better when we're together

Yeah, it's always better when we're together

Mmm, mmm, mmm

I believe in memories

They look so, so pretty when I sleep

Hey now, and when I wake up,

You look so pretty sleeping next to me

But there is not enough time,

And there is no, no song I could sing

And there is no combination of words I could say

But I will still tell you one thing

We're better together.

I will always love you..

Hello my love!

I was thinking a lot about you today.. it is hard to keep each other filled in on everything that happens when our schedules are so different.. I am trying so hard to make sure this next year is different.. I hope this year we keep the efforts going even when it is difficult.. sometimes are communication needs to be worked on.. but you're right it is important to discuss how we feel in a calm way and not waste time by yelling and letting our anger cloud our judgement.. the few moments we have durning the day need to stop getting wasted with harsh words and miscommunication.. I love you so sooooo much and my days are filled with wanting to find new ways to show you love.. so random.. I came across the photo of us from last halloween and it warmed my heart.. Another year has passed and I still get to wake up with a phone call from you ending with "I love you" little things you do always make me feel so special.. I still remember last halloween when I got all dressed up to try and impress you and you showed up in your notorious nerd costume.. hahahahah.. we spent that night driving around talking and going where all the trick or treaters were.. thinking it was cute and trying not to be creepy.. then we got hot chocolate and watched hocus pocus.. That night was so much fun to me.. maybe I don't say it enough but my favorite memories with you are so simple.. maybe over two years ago we drove around LA looking at houses and listening to music.. we stopped at a little sandwich place that also sold wine.. I still remember what we ordered and the chips we ate too.. we were both so excited that we found such a cool little spot and almost ran back to the car just to eat everything.. what I am trying to say through all these little stories and things I write about is.. I love you.. just you.. the only reason all these stories mean so much to me are because you are in them.. flashes of your smile come to my head.. memories I have no one else can take.. you in the rawest form.. only I can see.. I love you Robert..

                                                              I'm... I'm so in love with you

Whatever you want to do

Is all right with me...

'Cause you... make me feel so brand new..

.And I... want to spend my life with you...

Let me say that since, baby

Since we've been together

...Loving you forever

Is what I... need...

Let me... be the one you come running to...

I'll... never be untrue...

Ooo baby...Let's, let's stay together...

Loving you whether, whether

Times are good or bad, happy or sad

Yeah...Whether times are good or bad, happy or sad

Why, somebody, why people break-up, turn around and make-up

I just can't deceive

You'd... never do that to me... 

Stayin' around you is all I see

Here's what I want us to do

Let's, we oughta stay together

Loving you whether, whether

Times are good or bad, happy or sad... Come on

Let's, let's stay together

Loving you whether, whether

Times are good or bad, happy or sad

And if you mess with me, you can't set me free

Woman let's, let's stay together

Loving you whether, whether

Times are good or bad, happy or sad

And if you mess with me, you can't set me free

Woman let's, let's stay together

Loving you whether, whether

Times are good or bad, happy or sad

And if you mess with me, oh woman, don't go away

Let's, let's stay together

Loving you whether, whether

Times are good or bad, happy or sad

And if you do me wrong, I just might leave you alone 

I will always love you..

Hello my love!

I am still so bummed about your watch.. I tried to get it fixed today but I don't think the guy can.. maybe I will get you new straps.. I know I already sent you these photos but I feel bad I don't have any with your watch in it.. and I just wanted you to look back on a little picnic from this weekend that I actually promised you a very long time ago.. I realize the efforts you ask of me take a little longer than you want and I am sorry for that.. also.. what you said today really stuck with me.. about focusing on what we can do for each other and worry about how we are misunderstanding situations.. and learn how to fix problems by not blaming.. but by understanding first what we did wrong.. you have no idea how much I appreciate you saying you noticed yourself losing patience and snapping at me more than you ever have before.. but I also wanted to tell you I realize my faults too.. and there were mistakes I made to make you fall into those habits.. we are both at fault and it is extremely comforting knowing we are trying not to blame.. instead trying to fault the faults we can fix in ourselves.. I love you Robert.. 

When you came to me with your bad dreams and your fears

                                                       It was easy to see that you'd been crying

Seems like everywhere you turn catastrophe it reigns

But who really profits from the dying

I could hold you in my armsI could hold you forever

I could hold you in my arms

I could hold you in my arms forever

When you kissed my lips with my mouth so full of questions

It's my worried mind that you quiet

Place your hands on my face

Close my eyes and say

Love is a poor man's food

Don't prophesize

I could hold you in my arms

I could hold you forever

And I could hold you in my arms

I could hold you forever

So now we see how it is

This fist begets the spear

Weapons of war

Symptoms of madness

Don't let your eyes refuse to see

Don't let your ears refuse to hear

Or you ain't never going to shake this sense of sadness

I could hold you in my arms

I could hold on forever

And I could hold you in my arms

I could hold forever

I will always love you..

Hello my love!

I am so sorry but today a strap on this watch broke.. soo.. this is the only picture I was able to take.. I wish I could have taken it with me today to show you all the little places we went.. My mom loved her birthday.. I only wish you could have been here to be with all of us.. I am having a difficult time admitting how much I really miss you.. I actually look forward to sitting here at the end of the day writing to you.. I love waking up in the morning knowing you read this.. even if you really don't hahahaha it may be hard for you to believe me but I get really excited sharing this that happen throughout my day with you.. It makes me feel as if you are here with me.. I know you're coming home this weekend and my anxiety has been building because I am hoping I can still see you.. I do not know the right words to say when I do something wrong.. and I have an even more difficult time making you feel better afterwards.. I am sorry for that.. I haven't talked to you all day.. but I had a flashback to the day we spent at the park and we just sat in the grass talking for hours.. everything seemed so simple then.. we just loved each other and wanted to spend as much time together as we could.. now I am struggling to get a few moments out of the day to text you.. it makes me sad.. but it also makes me appreciate all the amazing memories I have to look back on.. and the few minutes I can hear your voice.. what I would give to be back in the park with you.. just laying next to you watching you smile as you talk about your dreams.. now I am watching you make those dreams become a reality from a distance.. and even if my smile doesn't seem as large and instead we are laying in separate beds.. I am so proud of you.. for being brave and challenging yourself.. taking extreme sacrifices to better yourself..moments like these when I have the time to think about all we have gone through and I can't help but smile.. I grow in patience.. I will patiently wait until you're back in California and we get to make new memories.. I am trying Robert.. the ball can stay in my court for the rest of my life if it means you are right there next to me.. 

Shes got those eyes, those eyes

Thatll see right through you When she leaves, then I,

I wanna leave, with her too And shes on my mind

And I go all the time When we touch I go weak

And I can hardly speak And I hope that she thinks about me

                                                                                  Cause Im always thinking of her

I just wanna hold her hand, be her man

I wanna know if shed take a chance Cause I still have not revealed it

Cause I still get the feelin That lovin her is a game Ill always lose

                                                                                      I got the brown eyed blues

Its a shame I didnt meet her before

Cause now I wanna see her more than I should Who's to blame when shes always on my mind

And Id see her all the time if I could And I hope that she cares about me

                                                                                   Cause I know that I care for her

I just wanna hold her hand, be her man

I wanna know if shed take a chance Cause I still have not revealed it

Cause I still get the feelin That lovin her is a game Ill always lose

                                                                                   I got the brown eyed blues

I dont wanna be with anybody else

She makes me take a good look at myself She brings out the best in me

She doesn't think any less of me When I do the wrong thing

                                                                             She loves me for me and I cant explain

Oh be her man

I wanna know Cause I still have not revealed it

Cause I still get the feelin That lovin her is a game Ill always lose

                                                                                     I got the brown eyed blues

I just wanna hold her hand, be her man

I wanna know if shed take a chance Cause I still have not revealed it

Cause I still get the feelin That lovin her is a game Ill always lose

I got the brown eyed blues 

I will always love you..