Hello my love!


I'm so sorry I left your watch at home.. I still feel really bad about it.. It felt so weird driving home today.. I had the strangest urge to call you and ask to stop by your house.. I completely forgot that you wouldn't be there.. And then when I went inside of my room I saw some stuff that you gave me.. and things we did together.. old pictures.. I miss you so much right now.. I don't mean to distract you.. I just miss you.. and I looked at old pictures I have of you.. And letters.. I just wish I could fast forward a few years.. And live with you.. Fall asleep next to you every night.. Or just be able to see you everyday.. I love you so much Robert.. 

There`s a strange feeling
hidden inside my heart

 There`s a strange feeling
stored up inside my heart

 I crave for love no matter
how hard
I long eagerly for love 

 even though it hurts

I`ll wait for you

 though
it takes so many nights

 I`ll save my last breath

 until 
the sun refuse to shine its light

 I want you to know

 I need you to know

 For you I will show

 that  
YOU`RE THE ONE

 I cant let go.

I love you so much.

Hello my love!

Today seemed so long.. I hope you had a good time with your cousin.. I wanted to talk to you about your midterm.. and ask how it went.. I felt nervous today for some reason.. I know how hard you work.. so I prayed that it went well.. maybe you don't look forward to things like I do.. maybe you hide your emotions from me.. but I have been looking forward to you visiting me since the day you bought the ticket.. Trying to shop for new little outfits to impress you in.. counting down the days until I finally see you walking out of the airport.. I may build things up in my head and get way too excited.. but it only means I care and that your company is missed.. everyday.. 

Sometimes at night,

when I lay down to sleep,

I embrace myself,

Then I imagine 

that you lie beside me..

hugs and kisses

all over my body.

I wish you 

could really be here,

just to whisper,

"I love you," in my ear.

I would turn around and say,

"I love you, too"

So I turn around 

and I wonder some more,

still wanting your embrace,

so I close my eyes and picture your face.

I fall asleep dreaming of you.

In my dream it seems so true.

It's as if I can really feel

your kisses against my lips..

Then I open my eyes

and you're nowhere to be seen,

so I wait until I get to see you again.

Until then,

I still have my dreams.

I love you so much.

Hello my love!

I miss you so damn much! I know I have been away from here for a few days and I am so sorry.. I realized something today.. when you love someone.. you should never feel embarrassed for showing it.. being able to express how you feel.. no matter who it is in front of.. as I was walking around today.. I noticed a lot of older couples around me.. what stood out most from every other couple.. was the way they seemed to be in their own world.. honestly.. as if nothing else mattered.. I guess people reach a certain age when they stop caring.. and grow comfortable with each other.. is it strange of me to ask if we could be that now? Maybe I want you to be my world.. to stay in this little world we have created wherever we go.. I miss you.. I miss you more and more each day.. and maybe it is because I miss the world I had when you were in it everyday.. I miss the feeling of growing comfortable with you.. and forgetting the world outside of ours.. when I am with you I feel like my world is back.. strange to think but.. This world you helped me create.. is paradise.. like my own little paradise I found in you.. 

Your lips speak soft sweetness

Your touch a cool caress

I am lost in your magic 

my heart beats within your chest 

..I think of you each morning

and dream of you each night

I think of your arms being around me

and cannot express my delight 

Never have I fallen 

but I am quickly on my way

you hold a heart in your hands

that has never before been given away.

I love you so much.

Hello my love!

I am so excited! You have so idea how excited I am to finally fly out to see you! I know it seems childish but I have always loved halloween.. always.. and now I get to spend that lovely weekend with you.. I also wanted to tell you how much I appreciate your patience.. thank you.. We are supposed to be teammates.. working together constantly.. Things may blow out of proportion.. or I might blow them out of proportion.. but we need to learn to work together.. and I love you of always trying.. I am lucky.. maybe I do not tell you ask much.. but I am so lucky to have a man like you to call my own.. a man like you to talk to everyday.. and a man like you to show me love when I need it most.. I may not show it as much as I should but I know how lucky I am.. 

Of everything I know and love and treasure,

it is you, my love, who gives me perfect pleasure.

I love your way with me, your touch, your kiss;

to be with you is happiness and bliss.

I love you so much.

Hello my love!

I know we had planned to have a date night.. but I understand you are busy.. things like this will happen.. I just hope you had a good day today.. I came across a quote today and I wanted to share it with you.. "Words are singularly the most powerful force available to humanity. We can choose to use this force constructively with words or encouragement, or destructively using words of despair. Words have energy and power with the ability to help, to heal, to hinder, to hurt, to harm, to humiliate and to humble" I liked it.. words have power.. and words can easily be misunderstood.. have a good night my love..

Everyday with you gives me a thrill;

all of my dreams you richly fulfill.

I'm a fool for your charms;

you belong in my arms;

love me; please say that you will.

I love you so much.

Hello my love!

I missed you today.. well.. I miss you everyday.. but more today for some reason.. I think it is because we talked for so long this morning.. I didn't want to get off the phone.. some days.. I feel like I am not home.. mostly because you are missing.. you said it so perfectly today "like a piece of me is missing," it is hard not to tell you that everyday.. but I don't want to make things difficult for you by constantly saying how much you are missed.. I love you Robert.. more and more each day.. Don't forget that..

If I could have all the time in the world,

I know what I would do:

I'd spend the time 

in pleasure sublime,

just by being with you.

I love you so much.

Hello my love!

About 15 more days.. I meant everything I said over the phone today.. every word.. even with my short temper and my words that do not seem so understanding.. I promise I am making an effort.. you know I will always be here for you.. you know that I only want what is best for you.. best for us.. even if our communication is only 15 min long conversations twice a day.. thousands of miles away.. but you are the one for me.. no matter where you are.. my heart will always be with you.. 

At first I thought we would just be friends.

A little did we know, our friendship would bend

to a love that is so big for the world to see

that you and me are meant to be.

Sun or snow, rain or shine

forever, forever you will be mine.

Mine for me, mine to be,

mine for all eternity.

I love you so much.